fucked up and weird dreams.
what the fuck seems to be the reason?i have no fucking idea
all i remember when i wake up is that they were weird,or if i do remember i remember bits
and all that i keep remembering is that i keep dieing..
seriously what the fuck is going on
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
who we really are
I guess this is the question i keep asking myself,and i still will for the next few years
Sure,at one certain point,i feel so confident,sure about myself,happy
but sadly enough for me,that just slips away in a few minutes
so another question i ask myself is;what is that 'slipping away thing' really
what really makes us unique?
id prefer to call it a soul,they all are different,they all think,feel
differently,react different to different actions
another question i ask myself is
when do we really,REALLY find out who we really are?
people spend a lifetime looking for happiness,but on their way
they forget who they are;thats if they ever knew
now that gets me to another point
what do we spend our life's for?
24/24 jobs that take 'our' time just to sit with our ass up in a office?
is that what the fucking school 'prepares' us for?
sitting in a office?
sure,school,what can I say,you can't get your stupid little Starbucks job w.e it
and all those diplomas and shit
who did really,reallyyyyyyyyy suceed after school?
I tell you,the ones with money,mostly
It all evolves around the stupid little yet big,tool of trade in the whole wide fucking world
M-O-N-E-Y,there comes the power?
I have no idea whatsoever hows in other countries but here,if you dont get off at least 50 euros at the hospital nobody will take you,trust me chances are big.
Im slipping off subject easily.
But Im sorry im a verry easily distracted and influenced person
oh,how i wish it wasnt this way
so,im on my way of finding out who the fuck i am.
Rather uninteresting,because it takes time,a shitload of time
IM UNPACIENT
verry.
I dont like this world.Im afraid of the next one
This shit is too deep for me.
makes me THINK. too much right now,toooooooo much.
oh and i dont give a shit if you don't agree with my so called points,shave your up your ass,mine will definitively change,but not now(:so thug shit
goodFUCKINGnight.
Sure,at one certain point,i feel so confident,sure about myself,happy
but sadly enough for me,that just slips away in a few minutes
so another question i ask myself is;what is that 'slipping away thing' really
what really makes us unique?
id prefer to call it a soul,they all are different,they all think,feel
differently,react different to different actions
another question i ask myself is
when do we really,REALLY find out who we really are?
people spend a lifetime looking for happiness,but on their way
they forget who they are;thats if they ever knew
now that gets me to another point
what do we spend our life's for?
24/24 jobs that take 'our' time just to sit with our ass up in a office?
is that what the fucking school 'prepares' us for?
sitting in a office?
sure,school,what can I say,you can't get your stupid little Starbucks job w.e it
and all those diplomas and shit
who did really,reallyyyyyyyyy suceed after school?
I tell you,the ones with money,mostly
It all evolves around the stupid little yet big,tool of trade in the whole wide fucking world
M-O-N-E-Y,there comes the power?
I have no idea whatsoever hows in other countries but here,if you dont get off at least 50 euros at the hospital nobody will take you,trust me chances are big.
Im slipping off subject easily.
But Im sorry im a verry easily distracted and influenced person
oh,how i wish it wasnt this way
so,im on my way of finding out who the fuck i am.
Rather uninteresting,because it takes time,a shitload of time
IM UNPACIENT
verry.
I dont like this world.Im afraid of the next one
This shit is too deep for me.
makes me THINK. too much right now,toooooooo much.
oh and i dont give a shit if you don't agree with my so called points,shave your up your ass,mine will definitively change,but not now(:so thug shit
goodFUCKINGnight.
Algebraic.
1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 + 14 + 15 + 16 + 17 + 18 + 19 + 20 + 21 + 22 + 23 + 24 + 25 + 26 + 27 + 28 + 29 +30 + 31 + 32 + 33 + 34 + 35 + 36 = 666.
I have no idea why I am drifting away from you,I wish this wouldn't happen
Yeah,clearly i rember that night and those text messages which sounded so painful yet so sweet
''i wont forget you <3''>
Seriously you sound like an asshole,you could at least pretend a BIT,you care..
Tell her shes wrong,and tell her if ive mistaken anything,im sorry i wouldnt want our frindship to fuck up away like this
And 'him',i dont know..do you even still talk to him?
I miss everything,everyone, the good 'ol times;fucks sake
Did i 'change' that much ?
was it EVER my fucking fault?
yeah,i am being so paranoic,it never is about me
next thing id like to wake up with would be you saying ''stop making it sound like it all is ABOUT YOU,it NEVER was an it will NEVER be''
well a good friend you are if youd say that
Its rather sad,im writing this and while doing it i bet for sure the person who's suppose to read it won't
well,my life is sad,why would you deal with it
I have no idea why I am drifting away from you,I wish this wouldn't happen
Yeah,clearly i rember that night and those text messages which sounded so painful yet so sweet
''i wont forget you <3''>
Seriously you sound like an asshole,you could at least pretend a BIT,you care..
Tell her shes wrong,and tell her if ive mistaken anything,im sorry i wouldnt want our frindship to fuck up away like this
And 'him',i dont know..do you even still talk to him?
I miss everything,everyone, the good 'ol times;fucks sake
Did i 'change' that much ?
was it EVER my fucking fault?
yeah,i am being so paranoic,it never is about me
next thing id like to wake up with would be you saying ''stop making it sound like it all is ABOUT YOU,it NEVER was an it will NEVER be''
well a good friend you are if youd say that
Its rather sad,im writing this and while doing it i bet for sure the person who's suppose to read it won't
well,my life is sad,why would you deal with it
My ireality?
Lately;
i keep being stuck between my fucking fantasy world,and the fucking society reality
now what the fuck is up with this?
either now im all dreamy 'bout something,either im all worried and scared
you might wonder hows this being stuck between reality and 'fantasy world' ?
well idk.
oh,oh!
i seriously feel the need to stay more inside the house
yeah,rightt
theres a huge world out there that awaits for me to go out,and then i get my flesh eaten by them?
ok im going nuts;no seriously?!
this shouldn't be really a blog..
more of a livejournal
eh
i keep being stuck between my fucking fantasy world,and the fucking society reality
now what the fuck is up with this?
either now im all dreamy 'bout something,either im all worried and scared
you might wonder hows this being stuck between reality and 'fantasy world' ?
well idk.
oh,oh!
i seriously feel the need to stay more inside the house
yeah,rightt
theres a huge world out there that awaits for me to go out,and then i get my flesh eaten by them?
ok im going nuts;no seriously?!
this shouldn't be really a blog..
more of a livejournal
eh
New School year?
noo,please!
i am fucking affraid of a new school,faces,FUCK;teachers
oh god,and our beloved bullies ..
sure i can speak the language,but how about writing
note;moving from british school to a romanian one
AWCH,thug shit man
i hate school,i hate everything related to school.
I sound like i hate everything in life..which is not true..
not at all
i got nobody to complain to but this,which makes me look/sound rather sad
i guess ill be posting tons of blogs a day
ahwell
i am fucking affraid of a new school,faces,FUCK;teachers
oh god,and our beloved bullies ..
sure i can speak the language,but how about writing
note;moving from british school to a romanian one
AWCH,thug shit man
i hate school,i hate everything related to school.
I sound like i hate everything in life..which is not true..
not at all
i got nobody to complain to but this,which makes me look/sound rather sad
i guess ill be posting tons of blogs a day
ahwell
Why i made this;
blog.
Because every 10 minutes i have constant wacky ideas,mostly complains.HA
so,let me just start off this delightful journey of me being a ''blogger'' by saying that,i will write here everything that flows through my mind,this as well might be my;diary,blog,and others.
so practically like a notebook i write everything that goes around my nutso head.And i do not really care if you approve with it or not.
got a problem,too bad.
hmm should i make a live journal as well?
[JAYUSCHRIST!I have to many accounts..]
so,let me just start off this delightful journey of me being a ''blogger'' by saying that,i will write here everything that flows through my mind,this as well might be my;diary,blog,and others.
so practically like a notebook i write everything that goes around my nutso head.And i do not really care if you approve with it or not.
got a problem,too bad.
hmm should i make a live journal as well?
[JAYUSCHRIST!I have to many accounts..]
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