if there's something good about me i'm the only one who knows: August 2010

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

depersonalisation.

I was reading thins incredibly awesome book (Ecstasy).
Well I'm not gonna write what the hole book was about here but..
at some certain point in the book the main character was being sooo seduced by this woman who just without her will ''took control'' over HIM.And when i say HIM i mean his hole personality.That she made him wanna rip his clothes off and do things he never would or dared to EVER do before.

Now I've been wondering ever since that part of the book..
What things can really affect us that will just make us..simply depart from our personality,ego,EVERYTHING THAT MAKES US.
And just dont care anymore,do the craziest things we could ever do!things we have never imagined before.

If society was like that (yeah im going back to my bitching 'bout society),''LIFE'' would have been soo much better.TOTAL CHAOS.
But hey i enjoy chaos to its fullest!
My life is a chaos after all.

our point is?

We all rebel against society getting integrated into something,and by all that we don't actually realize we,ALL,are making a group,and well..we're ''integrated'' in it?
I think it's human nature for us to want to fit into something,be labeled..or w.e
Because in the end really we all know we hate it..but who wants to die alone?
So what are we trying to prove?If we are trying to prove something..

are we all the same?

I can't help myself but wonder..why am I '''diffrent'' from everybody else?
I mean,shiiiiiiiit,You dont have to be some sort of fucking genius to make statements like that,well...which are cruelly true.

-oh jumping of a subject to another,I'm having serious lapsuses or however you spell that,and now im just trying with ym eyes clsoed hard,to remember what i wanted to write a minute agoo,its totally freaking me out,it's like i have a various infinity of ideas that shift through my head and I,once in a while,catch them,once they get used,they continue their ''brain journey'' or w.e,it's really reallyyyy annoying!-

anyways going back to the subject..oh yeah!
PEOPLE!
i just dont get simple things like that..
but then again I'll be going insane if i think or write too much
So live by everyday life and don't give a shit about society anything?

what about..

those who go through hardass shit in life. Don't THOSE people deserve some sort of award?
I really get to this point in my life where i wish i was a kid again.
SOCIETY IS FUCKED UP.
we are fucked up,and we make society fucked up.
WHY? IDK.

Why is everything powered by M-O-N-E-Y.
It's retarded but yet...smart.
I was asking my friend one of those,you know,philosophical day talks and i asked her ''why is there the need of money? why can't everyone have all they want?''
And yeah,why cant everyone has the perfect life with no diseases go on unlimited hollydays,never work for stuff coz you'd get it free.
But noooo!
The reality is harsh,crude,and fucked up. Call it whatever you want.
''people feel the need to be competitive,to be ABOVE others''
Now you see..because of those competitive completely greedy lifefucked assholes
THE WORLD IS SHIT!
no,life isn't shit.
we are life.
think about it?
when a mother gives birth she gives life to some sort of retarded little sushi creature,W.E not the point.
SO we,humans (unfortunately) are life,when you say life is shit,you say ''i am shit'' or ''we are shit''
I really know nobody reads this and thank god coz i bet everyone would troll about this shit.
But hey it's my opinion so fuck yours.
I could brag on about shit forever.

So really...why are we all like that ?